Maryam Rahimi Blogs!
On February of 2013, I was diagnosed with Lumbar Scoliosis.
Since the age of 15, I was involved in all kinds of sports. Kickboxing, grappling, combat ... most recently body building and spinning.
Today, I am a couch potato.
After my diagnosis, I gained over 40lbs & was hit with depression, constant fatigue and sleeping problems.... In fact, I am still experiencing all of these and have once again been diagnosed with something new ... Insomnia.
On the flip side, my career is at its highest with multiple projects ranging from North America to Middle East...I am developing innovative strategies to transition traditional business foundations to world class modules.... One that uses the power of mass media (IE social media, mobile, Internet, television...) to attract its consumers and increase sales.
My career demands physical, mental and spiritual strength. I am minus two: my physical and mental state of mind are struggling to stay just above the surface. Everyday is a battle. Battle against pain, aches, nausea ad sleep deprivation. All caused by Insomnia which is caused by my depression which is caused by back pain. It's one giant circle. Hallefuckiglujah.
This morning I woke up in tears and couldn't stop crying. My scoliosis was at 27% with two crushed vertebrae's in february of this year. Today it's at 32% with three bulging vertebrae's. By January 2014, I am pretty screwed.
Then something hit me today as I was driving to my lunch date with my uncle.
I grew up a warrior! Thats right, a fucking warrior like Xena!
I survived through abuse, rape, being bullied, racism & cheating lying bastard ex-boyfriends. I can overcome this... I will beat the feeling of handicap everytime I step out and my friend carries my purse, I will beat the sharp stabbing lower back pain as if someone is yanking out my lower spine, I will overcome the muscle spasms and the burning electrifying sensation that runs through my back all the way up to my scull.
I will beat this bitch.
How? Not sure yet... But am working on a plan...