Dig deep, and find whatever it takes to believe.
Before I started this blog or Fitbit, I lived in this constant FEAR of failing. Failing to lose weight, failing to get better, failing to recover from my back injury... THEN, when I hit rock bottom, like total bottom, where the world is dark and the sun no longer exists, I started climbing back up... I've blogged about my road to recovery in an earlier post so I won't get into it but I just came across this quote and OMG, I totally feel like I am flying now.
You can do it, you just need to believe.
Dig deep, and find whatever it takes to believe.
I've always been the type to visually document everything I do...
My new tool to stay motivated & on track with my weight loss journey is ... drum rolls please...
I love Fitbit. Mainly because it works with my competitive personality. Being on an application where you measure daily activity level and can compare it to your friends motivates you to keep pushing forward and get in the most steps. I love it. It puts me in a cyber team environment, sharing a common goal! This wearable technology stuff really works!
Bottom line is this: we all face weight loss, or weight gain challenges in life. The best way to go about dealing with it is to find a way where your can make it fun. Blogging about my weight loss is stimulating, creating mood boards is exciting, competing with my friends to get the most steps is thrilling.
Find your way, get engaged with your friends! Buy Fitbit and add me!!!
For a while I've been thinking if I should document my struggles with my spinal injuries, weight gain & depression. I feel like if I were to do that, the commitment alone would overwhelm me, ultimately leading into another binge eating session that would probably last for about a week. Yes, food is my weapon of self-destruction & instant numbness.
Few months ago, I ended up back in Montreal. I had came for a visit and was due back in California in October but as luck would have it, my American work visa never fell through and I ended up staying in Montreal permanently, unintentionally.
It might be the best thing that has ever happened to me.
Being back in Montreal among friends and family gave me the big nudge I needed to get my act together and start the journey to weight loss. So... I solemnly swear to tell the truth, the whole truth, and nothing but the truth. Here it goes...
Over the next one year, I plan on doing...
With all that said, I have been doing this for the last month and have lost 8 lbs, gained emotional stability and my mood swings have been reduced by half. I look forward to getting better all around and sharing this journey with you.
"What I’ve found is that difficulties come when you don’t pay attention to life’s whisper, because life always whispers to you first. And if you ignore the whisper, sooner or later you’ll get a scream. Whatever you resist persists. But if you ask the right question--not why is this happening, but what is this here to teach me—it puts you in the place and space to get the lesson you need." - Oprah
It's hard to believe that up until today there are companies that still have social media blocked off of their network so that employees don't surf their Facebook.
Ok... I see their point...
Facebook is addictive!
But gone 'should' be the days where we don't trust our employees to do their job, and not just get it done but accomplish it with passion and soul. Sadly this still exists today.... specially now that I live in Kuwait ... I see employees who work for money and just that. So sad...That is a whole other blog, let's move on...
A good trusted employee (and that should be a priority when hiring, 'trust') will indeed surf Facebook (I will be first to admit) BUT it's mainly during my down time and for just a quick glance of my newsfeed. My visitation on social media site profits my company far more than my personal life. I only work where I love to work and I tend to talk about it on my social feeds. This helps my company on many different levels: marketing, employee branding, brand recognition, exposure, networking & etc..
So to managers, head of departments, and CEO's... keep reading please :)
1- Improved efficiency and productivity. There is no way anyone can work a full 8 hour day straight. As much as companies would like to see their employees work like robots and be productive and happy throughout the day, it is just not realistic. Studies show that employees energy levels and stamina improve by as much as 25% after taking breaks throughout the day. We live in a digital world now whereby people socialize in different ways. Gone are the days where everyone congregated around the water cooler to discuss what happened on the weekend or the score of the football/hockey game. We go to Facebook or Twitter because that is where everyone is and where we can get instant news and information.
2- Increased Loyalty. Banning social media usage at work sends a message to employees that you don't trust them. If they feel you don't trust them, then they certainly will not trust you as a company. Loyalty today is a word I do not hear often, yet retention is an important thing to a business. To recruit, hire, orient, and train a new employee can cost a company upwards of as much as $3500- this for an entry level position. So with that in mind it is should be in the best interest of your HR department to retain and keep your employees happy and loyal.
3- Improved Employee Satisfaction. Your best fans are your employees. This reason is hard to grasp, but if your employees are happy, efficient, and loyal to your company, then it shows when they talk to your prospects and clients. Your employees are on the front lines, and if they seem disgruntled because you don't trust them enough to allow them the freedom of choice when it comes to their break time, it will come across to your clients. A satisfied employee is worth its weight in gold, embrace it and you will reap the awards ten fold.
4- Attracting the right kind of talent. Generation X and Y individuals are very tech savvy. They have handheld devices, tablets, etc. They use their devices to socialize, to communicate, and to find things. These individuals want to work for a company who is modern, upbeat, and one that accepts the digital and technological world that we now live in. If you want to attract the right type of employee to your company, you have to be willing to allow employees to use social media sites at work. If not, then you risk missing out on recruiting talent.
5- Workplace Harmony. I can usually sense what kind of culture exists at a company within about 30 seconds of being at reception. Peace and balance within a company is crucial. Running a company with an iron fist like the Gestapo and threatening punishment to an employee for using Facebook will not create a harmonious workplace. Where does it end? If you ban social media, do you ban fraternizing at work? No talking, no eye contact, no nothing? The average employee is not going to spend all day on Facebook or Twitter. Studies show that at most, people spend maybe 15-20 minutes a day liking, sharing and commenting on social media. That is equivalent to one break.
' If a workplace has a pleasant environment built on mutual trust, understanding, and fairness, you will have a happier and more productive workforce. If you do not have a social media policy in place for employees, then it is time for you to seriously consider having one that encompasses allowing your employees to use social media at work.' - Mike Morden
it’s a wonderful reminder that worthwhile things in life take time and patience to achieve.
I'm standing at the top of a hill with captains of old traditions and structures. I look ahead and see uneven grounds with mild peaks. I know what I know & I can make do & more with what the landscape ahead needs. But on this high hill that's built with what seems like an ancient structure, the men rule. How do you tell them past this hill comes landscape with a whole new foundation? How do you convince them to invest in the future today? How do you stretch their imaginations beyond its current state and make them believe?
My father is of baby-boomer generation. Man of tradition and hard work. Results are calculated in dollar amounts. I am generation X. My values are about balance all across the organization. I want to see employee satisfaction, I want to stay on top of international trends, I want to see steady profit flow and I want to be innovative. Can you imagine the battles I have to put up with with my baby boomer father?
According to authors Michael Hais and Morley Winograd, "small businesses and the entrepreneurial spirit that Gen Xers embody have become one of the most popular institutions in America. There's been a recent shift in consumer behavior and Gen Xers will join the “idealist generation” in encouraging the celebration of individual effort and business risk-taking. As a result, Xers will spark a renaissance of entrepreneurship in economic life, even as overall confidence in economic institutions declines. Customers, and their needs and wants (including Millennials) will become the North Star for an entire new generation of entrepreneurs"
When I argue these points with my father, he blames the region and it's limitation for not believing in 'my' ideologies and methods in doing business. If I haven't disclosed where we are doing business, it's Kuwait. In the middle east, south of Iraq. He says due to the political problems and the wars going on in Kuwait's surrounding region as well as the foundation of our existing business, my ideologies are nothing but a dream. I say fuck that. I say let's invent a way, a solution to make things work within our current structure.
The war continues. Everyday I fight to instil new ideas and imaginations in these peoples minds, and everyday I get shut down and pulled back. I will not give up. If Steve Job had given up when he first started building what today we know as Apple, your iPhone, iPad, Apple computer wouldn't exists. Can you imagine a world without that? I can't and don't want to. I want even more than what Apple is currently offering.
Let's invent please!
Lead's break boundaries and make a statement!
Let's make the world a better place!
Let's equip people with better tools to do what they do faster, easier and happier!
LETS DO SOMETHING!
On february of 2013, I was diagnosed with Lumbar Scoliosis.
Since the age of 15, I was involved in all kinds of sports. Kickboxing, grappling, combat ... most recently body building and spinning.
Today, I am a couch potato.
After my diagnosis, I gained over 40lbs & was hit with depression, constant fatigue and sleeping problems.... In fact, I am still experiencing all of these and have once again been diagnosed with something new ... Insomnia.
Feel free to shoot me now.
On the flip side, my career is at its highest with multiple projects ranging from North America to Middle East...I am developing innovative strategies to transition traditional business foundations to world class modules.... One that uses the power of mass media (IE social media, mobile, Internet, television...) to attract its consumers and increase sales.
My career demands physical, mental and spiritual strength. I am minus two: my physical and mental state of mind are struggling to stay just above the surface. Everyday is a battle. Battle against pain, aches, nausea ad sleep deprivation. All caused by Insomnia which is caused by my depression which is caused by Lumbar Scoliosis. It's one giant circle. Hallefuckiglujah.
This morning I woke up in tears and couldn't stop crying until around lunch time. My scoliosis was at 27% with two crushed vertebrae's in february of this year. Today it's at 32% with three bulging vertebrae's. By January 2014, I am pretty screwed.
Then something hit me today at 1:38PM as I was driving to my lunch date with my uncle.
I grew up a warrior! Thats right, a fucking warrior like Xena!
I survived through abuse, rape, being bullied, racism & cheating lying bastard ex-boyfriends. I can overcome this... I will beat the feeling of handicap everytime I step out and my friend carries my purse, I will beat the sharp stabbing lower back pain as if someone is yanking out my lower spine, I will overcome the muscle spasms and the burning electrifying sensation that runs through my back all the way up to my scull.
I will beat this bitch.
How? Not sure yet... But am working on a plan...